It's okay

stop it. if he's after her, let him be.

Bro zoned. again.

Second man. Bro zoned. But I dont mind being friendzoned by this one.

Why

Why is it that I can't get the guy I want. And life is spiraling out of control. And I dont know where should I go. I used to be self assured. But I'm distracted. And I get stupid. And then I wont get the guy I want. Why. Why can't I bring back the old me? Funny thing is, maybe it's just the way life has to be. I dont get the guy I want. That's it. People won't remember what you said. But people will remember how you make them feel. I should stop being emotional. Uni is really the time when I find myself. Stop whining. Pick yourself up. Get back to this when you need to. But don't let others know. Confide in small group of friends. But that's it. This is a journey to find who you are.

Entry.

I made a pact. If he's not going to confess to me today, I am leaving him forever. I've sacrificed too much already. I can't go on like this. I need to move on from all these shackles. Find me. Get out of his tightening ropes.

Saturday, June 13 2015

a.     What went well today/what am I grateful for?

b.     Where would I like to improve? What principles could I follow in the future in order to improve?

c.     What do I hope for in the future?

I have fallen out of love. I don't know why I like to imagine stuff. You, Me, and any men in the world.

But right now I need to find me, before I find you. Why am I so worried that I wont meet the One? if I trust in God's plans, I wouldnt be this stressed out. Correct?

I have lots of things to do right now. Studying basically. I need to be happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. Don't think about other stuff. Happy. It's a destination. Right?